Since I've been back in Saskatoon, I've been trying to reenter my usual work force and get back to some sense of routine. I also have a lot of catching up to do with a lot of things, so I've been trying to take time off from my shift work to get caught up. I also was hoping to relax and enjoy some me time, as I haven't had any since September, and that time was spent dealing with a break up.
My first week back, I had a bunch of shift work to do, but it was actually very helpful. I had two days of box office work with On The Boards, and I was able to get a lot of things done- the benefits of office hours! Then I started to take time off. I spent most of my "days off" getting stuff done. Initially, basic stuff like cleaning, going to the gym, cooking. And then there was lots of emailing, organizing, sorting, preparing.
Then the work never stopped. I was getting replies to all of the emails I was sending out, all with more requests of things to do. I kept thinking "once this is done, I can relax" and then more things would crop up and I wouldn't take time for myself.
At the points that I did take time for myself, I felt guilty through most of it. I would spend a lot less time eating and preparing food, which couldn't have made the stress lessen at all. I would cheat myself out of time at the gym, by bits at first, and then by not going at all. I would sleep very little and work the entire time I was awake.
Yesterday, finally, I was able to relax. No guilty feelings about doing no work all day, and it actually motivated me to get one small thing done. And today I found myself even more motivated, hence this blog post!
I guess I've been feeling not so good lately. Tired, unmotivated, stressed, sad. I don't know what flipped the switch yesterday that made me feel so much freer, but the difference in how I feel today versus how I felt last week is staggering.
So take care of yourselves, friends, even when these holidays are stressful! I'm going to go organize some online profiles. Holly Jolly Merry to everyone! I'm currently enjoying the few Christmas presents that I bought for myself, like these Firefly leggings!
And I have had no shortage of puzzle fun since I've been back. To see them all make sure to find me on Instagram (lesmis456)
While I have been struggling to relax, Crouton has been having no trouble with it at all.
And here he is helping me work, too!
I'm glad to be on the other side of the stressful stretch. Are you stressed about the holidays? Does it suck to have to get everything done before you leave for Christmas? Let me know in the comments!